How weird am I?

How weird am I? I was so excited about losing weight earlier today. I don't think I've lost it, I don't think like I've lost any, and I've felt like I've gained weight. Tonight my little's mom (from Big Brothers Big Sisters) asked me what my secret was. I asked her what she meant by that and she said she wanted to know how I've lost weight. I was shocked. Do I actually look like I've lost weight? I've now got a picture in my mind that I look gaunt or something. I hate body image. One second I'm thinking I'm doing pretty good, then I think I'm not. I was so skinny in high school and I don't want to look like that again, but I don't want to get fat either. I just don't know where the line is. I'm not terribly worried about it because I know I have a long way to go before I am considered fat, but it's all weird in my head. I am just insecure right now, and I hate feeling that way. I sometimes feel like I am only attractive to drunk boys, and I know that can't be true. Insecurities suck and whoever invented them is stupid. I'll wake up in the morning and feeling something completely opposite of what I'm feeling now. I'm so weird....